My initial reluctance…

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Another blogger confession going deeper on the last post.

Originally I felt compelled to blog because I really didn’t have any friends, moreover nobody to talk to about the things I like and have that dialogue. There was not and still not one soul on this planet who knows what my favourite song/film/book is. Sometimes facing this reality feels devastating. In the Western world, generally speaking, you have that identity, people that know and care about you get the privilege to hear and share these treasures. So how do you cope when you don’t have that? Enter blogging….

I guess that’s why I’ll blurt out a song with it’s lyrics across this blog. Yet also the reason why I have shied away from writing about the things I love on this website. Putting this kind of information out there actually limits my chance of true connection. Because heck people could just Google you…

I’m still stuck in that same unknown state. Of course I appreciate anonymity. (I don’t like taking selfies.) But it’s that human connection of being known by a small circle of friends that is typical of life in a ‘developed’ country that I still continue to lack despite my efforts to redress it. I’ve lost out on a lot of life and maybe the balance doesn’t really get restored and that’s what I’m trying to deal with. You have to give up the hope because the hope is what can weigh you down.

Ultimately it is blogging that has paved the way for me get certain types of opportunities and increase my chance of some kind of interaction with others. So I have to give it all that I have. I have to give up the hope and the dream that someday, somehow I would actually make genuine connections where there’s a real like-mindedness because now that I’m online, sincerity from others becomes more hazy…

 

 

Blogger confession:

Hey guys,

So 2016 has been a year of highs that were astronomical and unpredictable as well as full of lows. My promise for 2017 is to make this blog more focused on championing awesome talent, helping you to discover new talent and showcasing hidden treasures.

I don’t feel I’ve made this happen as much as I’d have liked this year partly because I was so busy and my poetry took off in ways I couldn’t imagine and also because of a secret.

The reveal…

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I have major reservations about being online, being a blogger, having my face on the internet. Much of this drive to write online was naively fueled by wanting to make friends.

A dread about writing online the things I like is that someday just when I think I’ve made a real connection with someone it turns out that the person has probably just read about me online and the connection and seemingly similar interests were fake or perhaps they sincerely did like me/want to get to know me, so read about me on my blog as a way to get to know me and ingratiate themselves to me.

Either way, I’m done. I’ve just given up the hope. You end going that long without friends and the opposite sex that having it in your life would only become a hassle. A foreign concept.

So here goes, in 2017 I will ensure to give you satisfying and enriching reviews of the books, film and art that I really like. I’ll just put it out there…

It’s really just all about My Readers because without you I wouldn’t be able to write books. You guys me the world to me!

Also be sure to follow me on Twitter: @CattVaughan as I hold occasional Giveaways of my books I’ve published or films and books that I adore.


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